I should be geeking out and gaming this afternoon. I'm not. It's not my week to GM my Serenity game. I'm supposed to be helping play test another player's new rule set. I'm not. Up until late last night I had fully intended to participate. I thought about it all week, it will be fun I said. Last night I realized it wouldn't be. (Sharp as a bowling ball this one is). As I've alluded to in the past, I'm no longer having fun and enjoying taking on the role of a fictional character and trying to tell their story, and to help tell the stories that the other players and the GM are creating. I haven't enjoyed it for several months and I've realized that Albert Einstein's definition of insanity is applying here;
I'm not getting any different results. Three different Gamemasters, three different games with no less than eight or ten different characters created, retired or killed off by boredom, mine not theirs. I don't know if it's burnout, after all I played my first game of D&D (First edition, original 3 book) way back in 1979. I don't think that is the issue as I am still enjoying the act of world-building and story-telling from the point of being a gamemaster. It's not necessarily the company I keep, the other players are experienced and for the most part good gamers. Each have their individual quirks and gaming styles, some good, some...not so much. I'm the same way, good, bad, ugly and set in my experienced ways. Therein, might be the problem. The chemistry of the group may be such that it "Damages my calm." (reference).
"Insanity: Doing the same thing over and over again and expecting different results."
I'm not getting any different results. Three different Gamemasters, three different games with no less than eight or ten different characters created, retired or killed off by boredom, mine not theirs. I don't know if it's burnout, after all I played my first game of D&D (First edition, original 3 book) way back in 1979. I don't think that is the issue as I am still enjoying the act of world-building and story-telling from the point of being a gamemaster. It's not necessarily the company I keep, the other players are experienced and for the most part good gamers. Each have their individual quirks and gaming styles, some good, some...not so much. I'm the same way, good, bad, ugly and set in my experienced ways. Therein, might be the problem. The chemistry of the group may be such that it "Damages my calm." (reference).
It's rather sad to think that a hobby I've loved and enjoyed for nearly forty years may be headed the way of the dodo bird...
See you Tomorrow...
“The
definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but
expecting different results”. - See more at:
http://ideapharma.com/announcements/the-definition-of-insanity-is-doing-the-same-thing-over-and-over-again-but-expecting-different-resul#sthash.Tf1R8bDd.dpuf
“The
definition of insanity is doing the same thing over and over again, but
expecting different results”. - See more at:
http://ideapharma.com/announcements/the-definition-of-insanity-is-doing-the-same-thing-over-and-over-again-but-expecting-different-resul#sthash.Tf1R8bDd.dpuf
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