It's not over.

I'm tired, physically, mentally and emotionally exhausted.  I am safe but I am so bloody fucking tired.  I want to escape to a place where I can rest, and recharge, somewhere safe from the worries that plague me daily.   However, that's not possible, physically, mentally, or financially.

I'm stuck.  The depression and anxiety have taken their toll.  Even though the oncologist is quite happy with my renal cell carcinoma prognosis, it too has left me exhausted.

There is so much darkness in the world surrounding me, hatred and ignorance.  The angry orange shit gibbon with his penchant for Russian cock, Russian whore piss, and the complacent, complicit orange cocksuckers that is the GOP these days have left me hating what my country has become.  America is facing a moral and probably mortal wounding.  It saddens me.  It sickens and disgusts me.  This is not the United States of America that I used to love.  This is a dystopian cyberpunk nightmare.

Brown children in cages, the LGBTQ+ community under attack, the rich getting richer and the poor getting fucked.  This is the GODDAMN 21st century!  This is not how we're supposed to be.

I can only hope that we can come to our senses in November and begin the process of trying to fix this absolute fucking shit storm.

I am fucking exhausted, but I remain safe.
Peace, Love and Harmony to all of us.

Heavy heart.

After the near disasters of close calls last week and only 14 to go before I hit that magic six-month mark, I thought I could get a couple of entries ready and get a jump start on next week.  Then I slacked off completely on Friday.  Yesterday, I mostly slacked off, only writing one short paragraph, which on Sunday I promptly deleted.

Today, Sunday, June 11th, 2016.  Outraged and saddened I published a short entry.  I have nothing left to post at Midnight.  Nothing, save this.  I don't feel like trying to be funny, or thoughtful, or poignant.  I don't feel like posting an angry, railing diatribe.  I feel nothing but a great sadness today. 

This may very well be the end of the Ramble.  

 ...Peace...

Saddened, Frightened and Sickened.

I sit here just hours before the last GOP presidential debate of 2015. Will I tune in for the spectacle? No, probably not. It's frozen-rubber-disk sports thingy night. Aside that fact there is absolutely nothing, not-a-thing, nada, zilch, el zippo that any one of these clowns delusional and possibly psychotic, sociopaths and wannabe despots can say that would make me surrender my precious vote to them.

Yesterday at a rally for the aspiring Führer and amid shouts of sieg heil a #blacklivesmatter protester was roughed up and forcibly removed, one orange toupee supporter even shouting;
"Light the motherfucker on fire."

I don't want to be part of this America. This America saddens me. This America frightens me. This America sickens me. This America needs to be ground into dust and scattered to the wind.

Merriam-Webster just announced its word of the year isn't a word, but a suffix instead; -ism. When did we become so afraid? Why is the color of a person's skin, their religion, their gender identification or sexual orientation so terrifying? Why are everyone except white men still considered second-class?

To all the persons of the Americas and of the World who are oppressed, discriminated against and persecuted by members of my Caucasian race, I am sorry. I know I am privileged, I'm a white middle-aged male. That privilege makes me a racist, but I try so very hard, every single day to overcome that, to understand, and not to succumb to the ignorance, bigotry and hate.

So, before an angry Murican yells;

"IF YOU DON'T LIKE MY COUNTRY YOU CAN GET THE FUCK OUT!"

Let me enlighten the angry Murican's a little. Much of my ancestral lines were in this country before it became a country. At least three branches of the family tree were here before it had been discovered by the white Europeans. Do not tell me it's not my country.      

It's not much, but I am an ally and I will do what I can.

Thanks for sticking around, It's dinner time, I need a cup of coffee, and if I still indulged, a cigarette or two.  Peace.

See you tomorrow.

I WIN!!!

Hah! My day is complete.  One of my troll targets has just resurfaced.  I just got called an intolerant leftist liberal.   Really.  Moi?  I won't deny the intolerant part, but lil' ole me, liberal?  The man who for most of his adult life identified as a radical, militant, slightly conservative, middle of the road independent.  A leftist liberal?  A man who has voted for Reagan, Bush Sr, Bush the shrubbery once, yes I regret it, I'm sorry.  I've also voted for Obama once and Yoda a couple of times.  A man who now claims to be a radical, militant, mostly moderate, middle of the road independent.  A liberal leftist? 

"Gosh, Chip, you do such an excellent job of demonstrating the "tolerance" of the left! You even managed to include insults to my character. Congratulations."

When one uses right wing propaganda (USACarry and RedStateWatcher) to support one's ignorance and Islamophobia one should not be surprised if someone calls you on it. 

For the sake of transparency, I didn't really insult her character, much.  I may have implied it a little though.  I did however, and do fully admit, insult her intelligence. 

"              still no facts, still propaganda and still absolute bullshit. Period.  NRA, Tea-party fear tactics, and you're buying into the rhetoric of ignorance.  If you can't do better than this, don't bother playing along. Wait, never mind.  You should probably quit before you fall even further behind, the only thing you are accomplishing is showing your closed-minded and obvious reliance on fear, stupidity, ignorance and hatred.  But I'm done. No amount of truth will sway your ignorance."  

Oh, I did thank her later for doing more to prove my point than I did...

"I am free of all prejudice. I hate everyone equally."

W.C. Fields.

 Thanks for giving me a little of your time...

See you tomorrow.